Saturday, February 21, 2009

I AM REALLY SAD!!!

I suffer pimples since April 2008 till now.I think it getting worst every time i look at mirror.My heart felt so painful and i try to find a solution to cure it.i knew it might took a long time to recover.but at the same time,please people STOP your criticising and stop hurt me!!!!!

honestly ,i been cried for this.ya, i knew i been suffer pimples is this what i wish and what i want?don't you think if one day you also suffer from it how would you feel.Word come out from your mouth without filtering by your brain.How hurt it would be when each of you talking about it.please ,do concern on others people feeling,think about it if this happen on yourself what would you feel.

start to blogging again

It been a long journey for me through out this few month.
everything begin to change as well as me .
i found out some people looking down on me and some of them are supporting me.
obviously i love singing,i wont give up so easily although there were so many obstruct in front of me .I have to face them one by one.Some people criticise me badly on my singing.i knew my problem of oldish slang,i will try to prove u guys one day i can change it.

I join a competition in my school.I am so regret to choose a song"WHEN YOU TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME"by Diana Ross and westlife.I didn't perform well on the particular day.before competition,i found out there is some problem of my song,the melody change and the range of key change is too suddenly,i cant really change my key in nick of time .I been asking 4 help but seem no one really helping me.I didn't blame 4 anyone ,is my fault to choose the song and didn't perform well.I am so sorry to my friend who came to support me one that day.I knew i can do better than that.No matter how people criticise on me,thanks you very much and i am so glad to have you guys who willing to support me .What am i doing now is only try to gain some experiences,we learnt from mistake.

Everyone have their own ability to interpret a song.What you can do doesn't means other people can do.you have the ability and the range to sing that high doesn't means other people can do it as well.Sometime i really confuse,what advice people give to me i should accecpt or not.what i knew is everything i have to start from the beginning,sometime i feel i only have to enjoy music.GOOD lUCK lawrence.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

MISEREBLE LIFE

My life was so MISERABLE ........

I started to find my happiness...
I took down my every single picture...
It represent me...
I love my picture...
I love myself...
I am so bored...
I am so fool...
But I learnt not to fool by others...

Experiences

I learnt more about myself from experiences..
I am lazy...
I am stupid...
Even tough I knew it was wrong but I still did it...
Sometime I just cant hate myself...
I could not blame for anybody...
That's the way I choose myself be...
No one choose for me...
I am fool...
AM I???
Recap my stupid reaction
Sometime I cant stop laughing myself...
Is that u want??!!!
ARE YOU ACTUALLY HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU DID???!!!
Sometime YES but sometime No!!!
HA HA...

Fashion.
I am so blindly to follow fashion...
but did i actually followed the step of it??
ha ha but finally i found myself
Rather prefer my own style than blindly followed others style...
find something that suit you yourself is much more important...
sometime i just live in my own world...
haha but it cannot be define..
I actually enjoy it...
I LOVE MYSELF ...
I will protect myself now!!!!!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

AM I LOST?????ANYONE CAN TELL ME???

Nearly 4 month....i stay in KL ...a all new place for me... i taught i need time to suit myself...but found it wasn't an easy task for me to do it......I try to improve my languages.....i learnt a lot Cantonese as well as English.....but i found that i had seriously lost myself on self-confident....i really need and WANT my self-confident back!!!!CRITICISE for me is a good thing...but over criticise for me is a nightmare......I just cannot found a road for me to walk through the criticising and turn over again a all new me!!!!!I try to change myself....i found i change a lot...until i dunno who i m !!!i am so evil...so scary.......seriously...I am so week...come to KL i cried 4 times....for me...may be cry for me can release my tension..just like a girl did....cannot be define i am girlish....no need any proven...but it feel much more better for me....4 month i still cannot suit myself i am so lousy...pariah...sometime i rather prefer everyone just leave me alone here.....i felt so complicated ...I just can't follow what actually i had planned....haiz....anyway i change a lot I HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!

MY HEART SO PAIN...

You are the one who light up my life...I taught it was a new life for me.....but it disappoint me again and again....I miss you so much but you doesn't knew it......I am so week.....Ill ....I CANT AFFORD TO LOST U !!! My heart so pain..who knows??????????!!!!!

No one was understanding.NO one !!!Every time i view your friendster profile..my heart so pain....my tears just invaluable!!!!You are the first one who i really love...I cannot blame anything to you.....is my faulth...T.T although it last very fast...but i appreciate all the time we sacrifice together......T.T I need more care from you also......I don't like the condition I am now!!
I LOST MY SELF-CONFIDENT!!! I dunno who am i !!!!I found that I am seriously LOST in this city.........I LOVE YOU MY DEAR....T.T NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN...YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART......

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Finally I KNEW

Stay alone in a strange place.....
I knew my new life had begun.......
it might full of sadness or happiness
just depends

First day night#
stay alone ..so uncomfortable
looking at the moon.it waS so bright and round
i start to miss my home....
felt lonely ...my tears slowly emerge ..
i knew i should be strong...no more depends life towards my parents
i knew i should study hard..no more disappointed 4 them ...
I knew the life 4 me wasn't easy now..but it might taste better after suit myself here..
stars shining n blinking on the sky...
i knew i start to miss my hometown ........
I miss everything there
my bed..
my family...
my lovely dog...
everything.........i knew i should appreciate all thing i had ...
but the fACT is i didn't do so...
i wasn't obedient as what they thought ...
I choose my life to went here...hope i wont regret next time
i would try my very best 4 my study...
i knew i could do it well if i really put my afford...

LIFE BEGin#
challenges come without sound
every moment so significANT 4 me...
i knew again...
stay lonely night wasn't good feel 4 me...
many memories might spring out at a sudden
unexpected emerge...
not enough preparation 4 me to face the fact..
what to do....???

MISSIng ? and MiSsiNg
missing my friends.........
missing my family
missing-lost
missing-miss
sometime it was just complicated enough...
i knew i fed up already.....
i knew i missing the time spend together with my buddy..
now..i missing them....just 4awhile??? or 4ever??!!
missing the time with my family.....
less communication....far apart from each other....
missing missing and missing.......
tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow
what to do???!!!

NOW I KNEW

NEW AMERICAN IDOL 7-DAVID COOK


It been a long journey taking roughly 6 month to finish up compete with each other ..finally the moment await arrive.DAVID COOK is the new American idol..contrary DAVID ARCULETA had lose in this reality show ..too bad 4 him anyway it was just a beginning 4 him ,i am very cocksure he will success in music this field.For me, there is no any black horse this year..everyone was so consistent..i love Syesha very much so sad she can't enter final phenomena..anyway she did a great job..