Tuesday, September 9, 2008

MISEREBLE LIFE

My life was so MISERABLE ........

I started to find my happiness...
I took down my every single picture...
It represent me...
I love my picture...
I love myself...
I am so bored...
I am so fool...
But I learnt not to fool by others...

Experiences

I learnt more about myself from experiences..
I am lazy...
I am stupid...
Even tough I knew it was wrong but I still did it...
Sometime I just cant hate myself...
I could not blame for anybody...
That's the way I choose myself be...
No one choose for me...
I am fool...
AM I???
Recap my stupid reaction
Sometime I cant stop laughing myself...
Is that u want??!!!
ARE YOU ACTUALLY HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU DID???!!!
Sometime YES but sometime No!!!
HA HA...

Fashion.
I am so blindly to follow fashion...
but did i actually followed the step of it??
ha ha but finally i found myself
Rather prefer my own style than blindly followed others style...
find something that suit you yourself is much more important...
sometime i just live in my own world...
haha but it cannot be define..
I actually enjoy it...
I LOVE MYSELF ...
I will protect myself now!!!!!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

AM I LOST?????ANYONE CAN TELL ME???

Nearly 4 month....i stay in KL ...a all new place for me... i taught i need time to suit myself...but found it wasn't an easy task for me to do it......I try to improve my languages.....i learnt a lot Cantonese as well as English.....but i found that i had seriously lost myself on self-confident....i really need and WANT my self-confident back!!!!CRITICISE for me is a good thing...but over criticise for me is a nightmare......I just cannot found a road for me to walk through the criticising and turn over again a all new me!!!!!I try to change myself....i found i change a lot...until i dunno who i m !!!i am so evil...so scary.......seriously...I am so week...come to KL i cried 4 times....for me...may be cry for me can release my tension..just like a girl did....cannot be define i am girlish....no need any proven...but it feel much more better for me....4 month i still cannot suit myself i am so lousy...pariah...sometime i rather prefer everyone just leave me alone here.....i felt so complicated ...I just can't follow what actually i had planned....haiz....anyway i change a lot I HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!

MY HEART SO PAIN...

You are the one who light up my life...I taught it was a new life for me.....but it disappoint me again and again....I miss you so much but you doesn't knew it......I am so week.....Ill ....I CANT AFFORD TO LOST U !!! My heart so pain..who knows??????????!!!!!

No one was understanding.NO one !!!Every time i view your friendster profile..my heart so pain....my tears just invaluable!!!!You are the first one who i really love...I cannot blame anything to you.....is my faulth...T.T although it last very fast...but i appreciate all the time we sacrifice together......T.T I need more care from you also......I don't like the condition I am now!!
I LOST MY SELF-CONFIDENT!!! I dunno who am i !!!!I found that I am seriously LOST in this city.........I LOVE YOU MY DEAR....T.T NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN...YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART......

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Finally I KNEW

Stay alone in a strange place.....
I knew my new life had begun.......
it might full of sadness or happiness
just depends

First day night#
stay alone ..so uncomfortable
looking at the moon.it waS so bright and round
i start to miss my home....
felt lonely ...my tears slowly emerge ..
i knew i should be strong...no more depends life towards my parents
i knew i should study hard..no more disappointed 4 them ...
I knew the life 4 me wasn't easy now..but it might taste better after suit myself here..
stars shining n blinking on the sky...
i knew i start to miss my hometown ........
I miss everything there
my bed..
my family...
my lovely dog...
everything.........i knew i should appreciate all thing i had ...
but the fACT is i didn't do so...
i wasn't obedient as what they thought ...
I choose my life to went here...hope i wont regret next time
i would try my very best 4 my study...
i knew i could do it well if i really put my afford...

LIFE BEGin#
challenges come without sound
every moment so significANT 4 me...
i knew again...
stay lonely night wasn't good feel 4 me...
many memories might spring out at a sudden
unexpected emerge...
not enough preparation 4 me to face the fact..
what to do....???

MISSIng ? and MiSsiNg
missing my friends.........
missing my family
missing-lost
missing-miss
sometime it was just complicated enough...
i knew i fed up already.....
i knew i missing the time spend together with my buddy..
now..i missing them....just 4awhile??? or 4ever??!!
missing the time with my family.....
less communication....far apart from each other....
missing missing and missing.......
tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow
what to do???!!!

NOW I KNEW

NEW AMERICAN IDOL 7-DAVID COOK


It been a long journey taking roughly 6 month to finish up compete with each other ..finally the moment await arrive.DAVID COOK is the new American idol..contrary DAVID ARCULETA had lose in this reality show ..too bad 4 him anyway it was just a beginning 4 him ,i am very cocksure he will success in music this field.For me, there is no any black horse this year..everyone was so consistent..i love Syesha very much so sad she can't enter final phenomena..anyway she did a great job..

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Gathering in hang lim's house when CNY

HAHA please do not call police because we gambling here.......haha..........we play mahjung,blackjack,eating and so on haha..........nice memories again....CNY...so nice...even tough it pass 4 a long time......but i am willing to share with u all.......haha if u dun mind left down your comment haha......thks....muaks^^

I M REPORTER

UNFORGETABLE memories in my life










I had two times working experiences.....SILVER HO and HI LIGHT.......still vividly in my heart n mind....I and friends having a lots of fun when working together......we do not know each other..but suddenly we became friend in nick of time.........ha ha so nice.......
WE everyday building castle in the air together.......scold by boss together....having nice n superb meals everyday......fight sometimes......choose the latest new arrival......ha ha all bad thing we did together ha ha.....

Working in shopping complex .....I had a great chance to learnt how to communicate with others races,bargain price and so on......Even tough we had to do the same thing everyday...but....coz of our friendship.....it makes us had the spirits to continue to fight against all odds...(boss and supervisor )haha......their thunderous voice OMG like HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!
CORRECT O NOT also scold as long as they happy.........ha ha sometimes we really sad.....that's what really call ups and downs in life......working 4 people wasn't an easy thing.......we had to see others face ,when their temperate is good treat u like an angle BUT if their mood is bad!! OMG!!! TREAT U like hell ...........wuwuwuwuwuuwuwuwuwuuwu
I was the pity victim before wuwuwuwu T.T haiz......

HA HA while working...I like to take photo with friend.....that's was the most great memories 4 me...........i appreciate all the time.....all the moment....AH CHUA, AH BOON , XIAO LI,ADELYN,ORANGE,GUI NI We all had a great memories in the shop
sometime my friend cry after scolding by the cold blood supervisor........

BUT finally the great memories had end..........AKU RINDU KAMU SEMUA........KAWAN........

Saturday, April 19, 2008

THREE DAYS LIFE IN JBEE.....HAppy ...Dissappointed......



I felt tired on rushing everyday from here to there.....Monday i go kl...Tuesday morning i m rushing to go jbeeeeee.....kinda bus on 10am^^wuwuwu i slept damn late nearly 3am early morning....about 9am i awake!!!!!!!!!!i realizes i should wake up early to go photo shop to take my photo...i m going to pass up my mmu application form!!!!!!!!!OMG!!WHATS THE HELL I DID!!!??totally kong mong!!!after put on my contact lens....i go straight to photo shop....kinda fighting with time now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!normally i take about at lease one hours to make myself clean...bathing ,contact lens..hair...face...cloth...haiz..all my fault i cannot blame anyone.....

i back from photo shop about 9.30 am....i didn't ate my breakfast....my mum and i were afraid miss the bus......so we go straight to the bus station....arrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHIT!!!!!!!BUS START ON 10.30 AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuuwuwu.........i m so hungry now.....

After two hours we arrived in LUCKING BUS STATION......my mum's frd came and fetch us......ha ha i didn't meet that uncle roughly 6years already....so nice.......we went to snack shop to take our lunch....i ate GONG BAO JI DING rice and CENDOL...................the CENDOL sucks man!!!!!!!not sweet only few of red beans !!!herm!!!

Raining cats and dogs in the first day...i was so unfortunate so sad........i miss my time go for shopping.....disappointed.......

2nd day

We went to kota tinggi.....uncle's friend house.....we enjoy our meals at there.....wuwuwuwuwuuwuwuu raining again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOD ARE U KIDDING WITH ME???
I totally lose my energy.......i only can put on my hope on the last day go 4 shopping...^^

3rd day

HA HA ahahahhaaha sun raise up slowly.....i await the time 10am coming ...ha ha i prepare myself to went 4 shopping in CITY SQUARE!! HUUUUUUUUREEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYY
ITS MY DAY!!! we arrive there about 11am.....I going to shopping !!!I shop wherever i can ...even tough i was tired but...i dun one to stop even one second.........ha ha my mum and uncle felt tired they find a place rest themselves where else I continue with my shopping ha ha....so fun ...i bought total RM400 i wish i could purchase more....but time is an obstruct 4 me...coz we are rushing again bus on 5pm......so sad!!!!

ANYWAY I ENJOY ALL THE TIME....

WATS THE HELL AMERICAN DID?????KRISTY LEE COOK GOES HOME !!!!!!AMERICAN IDOL 7RESULT



Wat's the hell after American nation wide vote???!!!!KRISTY LEE COOK going home?!!BROOKE did the worst performance she was the one deserve to pack her bag up and back home!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOES American did a wise decision??!!!KRISTY has a good voice....nice tone...country music suit her very much........she was improving herself every week................contrary BROOKE getting worsen every week.....it cannot be define she did a great job on the song...LET IT BE.....but it pass 4 a long time already.....I was totally shock when KRISTY was out from the competition....American please open your eye and vote 4 who deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DO NOT CRITICISE HER (KRISTY)if u don't know about music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!KRISTY LEE COOK YO

U ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!MUAKSS

DRAWING...is body.....then.....COLOUR......is its soul...







DRAWING is significant in kinda life.It means a lots to me.It accompany me when i face ups and downs in kinda's life.Without it , it just like a circle had been cut into pieces.....it wasn't round...DRAWING has its own soul.....everyone had theirs own ability to draw....god is fair...everyone can draw....every word A TO Z were begun with drawing.....it just conceptional.....through imagination....whats actually occur....happen...emerge ....spring out ....through your mind.........record down not only can be using word but can be done trough drawing....

DRAWING up to everyone imagination.......
NO one imagination is same.....even twins also cannot create a same thing and emerge same thing in their mind.........drawing is just strange for me....i curious.....i find the solution.....finally i get it.........FOR ME...drawing comes together with colours...without colour ...it was just empty enough ...just like a person alive without soul....can be say dead....

COLOUR fill up the emptiness of kinda life......i like colour..i love colour...for me childhood drawing was the most vividly in my mind.....it was so charming...innocent...without stress...so real.....tats the reason i stop my foot in the journey of drawing in the step of kid's draw......i felt i found the happiness from there ......having competition with each others......having the prizes......enjoy after finishing the drawing.......i really really enjoy every moment in drawing and colouring........

I sincerely hope DRAWING AND COLOURING will be the best friend through my life..........muakssssssss

NICE MEMORIES IN SEOUL GARDEN--12 APRIL 2008






Early morning i had received a message from my sis....... zai today me n my husband plan to celebrate aunty birthday in melaka..u prepared yourself b4 12o'clock........if not u pay the bill~~~!! OMG!! BILL!! ha ha immediately i set my alarm 11am...

My aunty start annoying me to wake up when 10.30am......omgohess!!!!!!!!!!i slept in the early morning 4am...T.T i now really a panda.....wake me up like hell!!!!wuwuwuuwuwu.....i use my smelly blanket cover myself........use pillow cover my ear..........haha....unfortunetely...my MUM coming inside my room ..... i had a badly scold from her...wuwuwuwuwu my lovely, warm ,peaceful early morning was totally gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WAT THE HELL GOING ON THROUGH MY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!WAS IT A BAD SIGN 4 ME??.... HAHA WHOSE KNOW.

My sis reach on 12.30pm .......WTF!! told me 12pm herm!!!!!!!!!angry!!never mind as long as the bill not i pay enough 4 me already wahahahhaha....

We reach in MAHKOTA PARADE about 1.30 pm....we went 4 seoul garden enjoy our lunch.....
I brought my empty stomach go there. .... i m very cocksure i will eat alot ha ha ...till my poor stomach was totally full n buncit ha ha........

WUWUWUWUUWUWU......... i am sure my weight will increase in nick of time after having this superb meal..........yummy.....i even had the chance to make an ice kacang........ha ha so fun..........but nice to look yuck suck to eat ha ha......first time ma.......ha ha forgive myself ha ha .......but miracle ha ha after adding ice-cream omg!!!!!!!!!!it taste good .........delicious man.........u all should try it ha ha.Kinda having alots fun there ha ha...SEOUL GARDEN u rock man .........ha ha.

It just cost u about RM 30 per person including any drink such as soft drink.....kinda having a lots of seafood and meat...especially cha siew favour ha ha damn nice muakssssssss yummy!!!

Wat a nice memories eating Korean style food in MALAYSIA ha ha..........

Friday, April 11, 2008

Idol Elimination Shock!!!!Michael John Goes Down Under!!!


Idol Elimination Shocker: Michael Goes Down Under!
Last season, the AmIdol producers decided to keep in the spirit of Idol Gives Back by not eliminating anyone that particular week.But this season, after all the warmness and fuzziness of Wednesday's charity special, it was back to the nasty business at hand, with a specially scheduled Thursday elimination night.
However, after weeks of speculation surrounding a supposed wild-card competition during this year's Idol Gives Back week, I was hoping that not only would last year's noble non-elimination tradition continue, but that Idol would "give back" in another big way: by giving a previously ousted semi-finalist another chance. Yes, I simply refused to let this wild-card dream die.
So after a hokey allstar lipsynch montage to the Monkees' "I'm A Believer" so bad that the show's producers should be eliminated for even coming up with such a concept (do we really need to see Dr. Phil trying to rock out?), the producers put viewers out of their misery by ending that musical travesty...and began putting the contestants out of their misery by revealing the much-anticipated results.
Little did I know, there was far more misery ahead.
But first came a sad charity mini-documentary starring Forest Whitaker, then a half-lipsynched Jordin Sparks/Chris Brown duet (more lipsynching? why would Jordin lipsynch on a show that she won because of her great singing voice?), then yet another commercial break, and then a Ford promo featuring the Idols tossing cans of paint around like they were doing a remake of the J. Geils Band's "Freeze Frame" video or something, then a Bono charity film. While the Forest and Bono bits were obviously important viewing, the rest was just time-killing filler, effectively dragging what could have easily been a three-minute show all the way to the patience-testing 60-minute mark.
But finally we all got to find out who hit bottom this week. And I learned the two of out my bottom-three predictions were correct. Yes, I guessed Syesha Mercado and Carly Smithson right, but Michael Johns--who'd NEVER been at risk before, not even the one week he deserved to be, when he wrecked "A Day In The Life"--was a BIG surprise to me, and probably to many other people. Guess voters weren't too "inspired" by Michael's cover of Aerosmith's "Dream On" after all.
And still, I kept waiting to find out if all three would be safe--and that there would in fact be a wild-card competition. But then Ryan Seacrest delivered news far worse than the fact that the whole wild-card thing was just a rumor after all. And he delivered it in the uncoolest, most uncharitable way possible. You'd think in week full of such good vibes and good deeds, he could have been a little nicer about it.
Yes, it's sad but true, fellow members of the Aussie Posse: Michael Johns went down under tonight.
That was enough of a bummer, but as I said, the way Ryan went about Michael's elimination was downright nasty. Remember how Ryan was such (to quote Paula Abdul) a cold-blooded snake when he eliminated Chris Daughtry in season 5? Well, that was nothing compared to tonight's act of snakiness.
Basically, Ryan said something like, "Michael, you got the lowest votes, but as you know, last year we didn't cut anyone during Idol Gives Back week. Well, this week...(insert long pause)....you ARE going home."
PSYCH!
Now, was that fakeout really necessary? Why kick a man while he's down? Why give Michael (and his fans) false hope like that? Why make us feel like we've all been punk'd? That wasn't very Idol Gives Back-ish of Ryan. I'm sure Bono would not have approved. I sure didn't.
Anyway, can't we still have a wild-card competition...so we can reinstate Michael Johns? Please? Come on, Idol, give back! Give us back Michael!
Oh well. I guess have to accept that yet another one of my faves is gone, and put all my proverbial Idol eggs in David Cook's basket now.

from:AMERICAN IDOL

Thursday, April 10, 2008

FIRST TIME BLOGGING..


I had an ill today.....
i found my throat extremely pain when i woke up from my lovely bed...
Annoying message ring tone wake me up!!Mother fucking hotlink sending useless info again!!!!This was the most earlier time i woke up after i stopped working in supermarket.......

......about 1pm already.................

ha ha sun rose up 6 hours ago.........

Before start my first time blogging..i will not using such old stereo type sentences such as sunlight shooting on my ass wake me up from my bed ..mother knocking my door disturbing me..alarm wake me up..as my beginning of my blog..haha...coz all this method not work 4 me.....viewer read will be felt bored aso..hahaha..anyway....actualy it would happen to me..but juz my mum going to outstation...so ha ha...

After brushing my teeth i went down enjoyed my lunch..hi hi i never had my breakfast after stopped my working......it might b bad 4 my health cause of sleep late...T.T i had a pair of panda eyes now...sad ...and it might cause me having pimples problems...wuwuwuwuwu.......my pretty face ....now ended up v a pair big n round panda eyes ha ha i think i can represent china's 8 panda to go 4 Olympic.......i should sleep early i told n promise myself but i cant do it..ha ha

After having my lunch....i taking two pill of panadols...then keep enjoy my astro show.....AXN ---amazing races .It was a nice show .OMG!!!!!!...today show's mission is about participant should put the charcoal up donkey's body....then bring the donkey walk along three miles....omg...!!!!!wat a cruel team pull the donkey's head like shit omg!!!!they make the donkey cry....CRUEL!!!KEJAM!!!i felt so sad n mourning for the innocent donkey.....some team even blame 4 the donkey if they lose they will kill it n eat it!!!hahahahahhahaha the team finally really lose n had been eliminated from the race...hahaha but did they really did as what they been said before????ha ha STUPID !!!!SURE NO!!!!

After tat show...checking my mail n approve Friend request friendster....watch my favourite American idols again in you tube...ha ha syesha gogogo u r great in song I BELIEVE ...ha ha but FANTASIA did better ...she reali sang until touch my heart very deep ha ha....Carrie underwood - INSIDE TOUR HEAVEN omg .....unbelievable!!!amazing!!!fantastic!!!gorgeous!!!friends who want to improved their singing should take a look on American idols .....all performances are nice ...ha ha no lie no FAKE!!!

Having my dinner v "OH CHU BI' N duck rice ha ha damn nice.....while watching Taiwanese hokkien movie......"YI NAN WANG'' for oldish one ha ha ....but i m still young cute n hdsm(paiseh perasan ) ha ha ...after tat i went 4 training my guitar....then singing my song -inside your heaven,angles brought me here,i dun one to miss anything so on.....i got recording down...ha ha but just available 4 my best friend to listen...ha ha paiseh oh...

First time blogging it means a lot 4 me...i had a broken English..so that i hope i can improved as much as i can before i go 4 my further study.....this was the thing i did in the whole day...but beginning noon till midnight ha ha....no morning.........